shit is hard
Tomorrow I'm going to ride my bike for 6 hours or 116 miles, whichever comes first. When I tell people this, they think I'm crazy. Well maybe I am, but I think I'd be crazy for not trying. I think it's crazy to just always and only do what you're capable of. I am capable of an infinite number of things and I'll never what they are or aren't until I try. If we only ever did things we knew we were capable of doing when we set out to do them, there would be a lot of things left undone. I don't want a life lived with things undone, I want to do as many things as possible. You don't have to be good at something to do it, you don't even have to know how to do something to do it, you just start and figure that shit out along the way.
I've found that there will always be people to help you. As much as I like to think I'm an introvert and that I'd be perfectly fine to be a hermit and a homebody, I need people. I think all of us need eachother and we all have something that we can help another with. Everyone has certain things they are passionate about, things they are experts in, and if you're a passionate expert, more than likely you want to share your wisdom, knowledge, and passion with others. I think inherently all people are good and want others to be good. Everyone learned everything they know from someone else, or from putting in a good amount of effort on their own to learn. I have found that there is truly joy in being able to watch someone learn and grow as you teach them. While I don't have kids, I've watched people pick up on things, have aha moments, and be able to think for themselves afterwards.
Sometimes we get so stuck in this idea that we don't want to bother people or ask too many questions, but in so doing, we may be stealing another's joy in teaching. Perhaps that is why so many people love having children, because they are able to teach them and watch them grow and learn from day 1.